When the world has too many pretty things you want to have

I did some online shopping lately,wanna purchase something new,especially new tops. Lack of cash,this is why I put this at my title,see the point? Jesus,I want too many things,that's why I need to slowly save up,I purchased 2 items,thinking of getting only 1,but then again,I DON'T WANT TO LET GO OF THAT OTHER ITEM. Imagine leaving a kitten on the middle of the road,that's how I feel. I got a list,stuffs that I need to purchase,but when it comes to clothes,I prefer getting my own ones than sharing simply because me & my sister's style is different,the things I like,she usually doesn't,so its a pain in the ass sometimes. I don't know how to explain this la deng. I feel so 'unruly' ╭∩╮（︶︿︶）╭∩╮

Wanna know what I did today? Maybe not?
Yesterday,I saw a friend cry,today,another friend cried. What the hell is going on I also don't know but still,girls have so much of gossip & drama going on in their life that sometimes they get too carried away with it,that's the problem. Then,I slept for 4 periods straight,my teachers are so used to it they didn't even write my name down the discipline paper,then I FINALLY got my period today & today happens to be the last day of the month so I don't know if this is suppose to be June's period or July's period since I'm having it in both months. #life of a teenager is very boring I say


So,what do you wish to have? 
How about joining a race & stand a chance to win one of these?

(photo via google)

iPad 2

(photo via letsgodigital.org)

Canon EOS 550D

(photo via phandroid.com)

HTC Desire

Which one of these would you like to have?

I want either the phone or the dslr *grins*

Not only that,you also get a pair of movie tickets & top 20 racers will also win an exclusive Churp Churp Plushie & flashdrive!!

All you gotta do now is start inviting your friends to join the race & start sharing campaigns,as easy as that!

Come join me in this race to see who'll win.

Muahahhaha!

click here to start the race with me

Nia Leah

I don't know why did I even refer this person as a friend.

A song dedicated to someone who I really don't wanna refer as a friend for now because he is just super unfair & just so moron-ish. Before I make my blog look like some teen angst & anger release website,I am just simply blogging for the sake of satisfaction because I am really not quite happy with this person. AIYO!

I was bored,very bored,I did almost everything,even listened to 'Friday' at you tube,googled myself & went in & out of Facebook & Twitter to find some interesting things or notifications,not even 1 person layan me so I just continued doing nothing until.......................... I SAW SOMETHING -_________-

"Go help me click like ah! This is for my friend XXX! Remember to share ah!"

WTF???!!!!!!!! You kidding me? Know why I'm so mad? It's because this person happens to be an epic person,my close friend,someone I actually refer as a best friend & know what's worse? He only finds me when he needs me & remember that Reebonz contest I had? Where I need to get people to "like" my design on the official Reebonz fan page? Omfg that was a long time ago,not so long lah but come on! 

I am very very mad & upset because I used up ALOT of time pasting links onto people's walls & blogged & tweeted about it just to garner votes. I was freaking mad that some didn't support me,but if it's someone I don't know then I actually don't mind,but this person happens to be my friend,not just any friend,a close friend! Then now he is using so much of his energy to promote this so called pretty friend of his. So he didn't help me because of what? I am ugly? Oh okay then. But what about being my friend & helping me because I am your friend? He didn't help me "like" my design & he didn't bother to help me share. OK FINE. And some people go help me support other people also,this is so stupid words cannot describe their stupidity. If you happen to be those people that also go there & "like" other people's designs,aha your stupid! Know why? If you don't me personally then it's okay but if you know me & I clearly know you,then you very stupid! Because I am your friend,HELP ME LAH! Why go help me "support" other people also? Don't you know by doing that it will increase other people's "likes" which will make me go gaga & gila gila go ask other people to help me increase my "likes" -_____-  People are so funny sometimes,let's laugh,HAHAHAHA!

Call me desperate to win but no I'm not,it's just that when your competing in a contest of course you would want to win,right??! Who the hell wants to loose when you got rewards waiting? Damn. I was planning to use that gift voucher to get something for my mama & sister some more -______-

Sometimes I wonder how some girls who pose cutely & look like ghost with straight hair & pale face gets so many damn kukumalu votes for 1 stupid picture when I suffered & almost didn't eat the whole day posting links on people's walls??!! Walao eh. Not only me,my ex also gila gila mati mati helped me,he even got so pissed I didn't win that part of the contest (even though I did win the bag). You see???? I only got 100+ votes among 2k of "friends" in my friends list,I also noticed a lot of the "likes" come from my ex's friends which most are not my friends on facebook but are still willing to help me! But seems like my own friend doesn't. People are so funny nowadays,let's laugh again,HAHAHHAH.

Then when I see the photo that this friend of mine helped share,she got like 900+ votes,nearly 1k & what did I get? I should have created a nuclear bomb & bombed this guy a long long time ago if I knew what a dick he is -______- Excuse me *cough cough* I got every right to be mad about this. When I had problems I do tell him my problems plus I really care bout this guy,he is like a brother,I know his past & his stories,I always talk about him. But everytime I see him online he always looks as if he doesn't know me,he never mentioned me,he never really thanked me for something I planned for him during his birthday,he never actually referred me as his best friend also. Can I cry? It's sad,sort of. I wanna cry while holding a gigantic fork stabbing a toy donkey screaming "WHY WHY WHY WHY?!".

People are so funny,let's laugh for the 3rd time people,HAHAHAHA!

Songs that are too beautiful to describe

Fix you by Coldplay (this band is too awesome)

I had the chance to chat with Nesh again,it was so sad I wanted to cry,I really miss her & its so sad to know that she's so far apart from me,all the way at Germany. We talked about life,we were talking about boys,we got so emo-ed up because boys made us so sad.

Damn the world is so unfair you know? I hate getting emo because of things like this,its just so lame,but I'm human too,its sad not because I'm done with everything,but because he seems so distant,its like he is not the same person anymore,talking with him now is not fun at all. He said he'll be my friend but everytime I talk to him I can't help but feel angry & have this sort of resentment towards him,I'm just so angry at everything,why things turn out this way,when it shouldn't be. Right on the 7th month,its so so unfair,he knows 7 is my favourite number,now I hate it,I start to hate everything I once love. Including him,its like there is nothing else to be happy about,like the lyrics of The Scripts "Breakeven".. What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you?

The worse is that I'm having my exams,fuck the world,such a coincidence? Its not even fun. I just can't bring myself to talk to him in a proper manner,probably because I am a cold hearted person,once you did something that hurt me badly,I won't wanna talk to you,but him,its not that I don't wanna talk to him,its just that I don't know what to say & what to do anymore,its not like he'll care. I tell myself he's not worth my time,but those 7 months I had with him are the happiest times I had with a guy,he may not be everything but he's there to talk to me & he supports me in everything I do except smoking cigars (which I know is bad for health). He even supports me inking my 1st tattoo,not all guys are that open minded. He makes me feel pretty all the time,which rarely happens because I have very low self esteem & he's the type that understands my language & he knows many things about me,I don't think I need anything more than that,but all of a sudden we seldom talk & he's not my boyfriend anymore,its very hard to accept that,everyday I swallow the water collected in my eyes (tears) & write down my feelings in my diary but who cares? My diary can't solve my problem for me?

I just finished reading "Where Rainbows End.." by Cecelia Ahern,it was so beautiful I cried like a moron after reading it. Then the 1st thing that popped into my mind was "Fuck my life". I wish my life is as awesome as books,not all books,but maybe Sophie Kinsella books,where my life revolves around Balenciaga bags & such,which will never happen,damn it. I'm so moody & emo nowadays I wonder how can I even laugh at things & try to act all cheerful in places like school? Maybe because I hate acting all emo in front of people,that's not me. Well,fuck the world then. I wanna buy all of Cecelia Ahern books,seriously!

See this kitty? If his digits weren't webbed together & he can separate each finger or claw or whatever like a human can,I guarantee you he is showing you his middle finger like this o0o

I won't be updating much,exams,sorry but yeah,I forbid myself.
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Aiya,people can be so stupid sometimes,I am unhappy now

Yes,by FTW I mean fuck the world,literally. So pissed lah nowadays,I got so many bad things going on,I wonder how is my exam gonna turn out,like dog shit? Geezzz....I am tempted to write in my personal diary but what the heck,this is my blog,why not just write out my craps here? At least my readers know my life is also a "life" like any other,full of shits & all those unecessary things I call "Problems".

I need to rant,NOW!

I think I have english tomorrow,shit man,the teacher who is teaching me english is as lazy as a baboon I suggest he just go home & sleep all day,he talks crap,doesn't give us homework & when he does,he'll ask us to copy the answers,what the turf? You know WHY is he doing that? Because he doubts our english skills,WAHAHAHA now thats epic,a teacher looking down on his student's potential. YES I know my class may be the middle class,but there are people like me who are actually able to converse in proper english,what are you reading right now? ITS ENGLISH! Shit da la boom boom. Its been 5 months now (may lah now) & he haven't even start teaching us anything,just comes in class like a snail crawling,pick up kutu's from our head then leaves class,we ain't monkeys you moron,better start teaching or else your in danger! I will complain you ah!

Next. I came home from school today then the house is empty cause both mum & dad went to The Curve & I was so upset because I would have gotten the chance to eat my favourite meatballs at IKEA damn. #Iamindeepshit

And. Guess what? I don't think I should even talk about this,its personal,its crap,bull crap,if I were to start writing about it I'd cry & my sister's room will be filled with tissue's & she'd know I sneaked using the computer to blog about my miserable life T_T

Plus right now I'm so hungry I'm waiting for my mama to come back because she promised to dabao so many yummy food but its already don't know what time & I really cannot tahan liao I'll probably go make something lame to eat,but oh yeah I forgot I can't cook,ish.......bimbo.

FTW

Need to start doing an advert post also,or else no money T_T

I also made a poll,remember to answer the questions I ask!